All over the place...

Here's what I learned from my last post.  There is a site on the internet called www.factcheck.org and it has a lot of different takes on who's saying what and who is speaking the truth.  I looked up the Annenberg Public Policy Center to see who it claims to support and it doesn't say.  From what I read on the site, no one is purely truthful and but really, both parties  seem to be trying to get to a similar place.  I thought it was very interesting.

Like I said, I still don't know what to think about all this talk.  I just don't.

I am worried though.  What will happen if Romney is president or if Obama stays in office?  Will anything change with either?  Will the recession end or get worse?  Will I pay more or less for health insurance? for college?  to feed the family?  for gas in the car?  Will we lose more soldiers to a war that doesn't seem right?  Will the rights of folks be taken away?  Will whoever wants to get married be able to and will both sides stop hating each other? 

One of the comments I got today spoke to the fact that this political discourse is needed.  I guess it is but it makes me anxious.  I know, who cares if I am anxious, right?  You could argue that I'm always a little anxious anyway!

Anyway, on a lighter note...it has been a good day.  I saw an older lady that is failing.  She is old and wrinkle...beautiful in her own way.  I walked into her room and she was lying in a hospital bed, on her side, sleeping soundly.  The wrinkles that have made their home between her brow were soft and she was breathing evenly.  She had been given her pain medication two hours before and was the picture of comfort and peace.  For the hospice nurse, that is nirvana...a patient that has found the "sweet spot" in pain control.  That "sweet spot" is my wish for every person with pain...

On Saturday, I am leaving for Tampa to get on a cruise ship bound for the Bahamas.  The cruise is bittersweet because, truth be told, my brother-in-law, Uncle Pete, should be on this with my sister.  If everything went according to plan, he would have been done with his chemo, stronger and celebrating life.  If you follow this blog, you know that back in February, Pete passed away and left us heartbroken. 

So I get to go.  I have been spending all my time in my head thinking about him and how he would be so happy that the sisters were spending time together.  It will be good to be with my sisters and remember him, but I am sure there will be times when the tears will flow.  It will be a special time but also a tender time.  No doubt the pink wine will be mixed with all the tears.

So as the title suggests, I am all over the place.  My kids are at college, my last son is learning to drive, I am lucky to care for all kind of folks, and really, I don't know who to vote for in the election in November.  I am sick of the way information is put out, and I am tired of being thought of as stupid by both parties.  I want my rights, to have a flu shot or not....and I want everyone else to have those same rights...to love who you love, to marry who you marry and if it doesn't work out, to split the sheet.  I want to be able to provide awesome care to folks in their homes whether insurance pays for it or not, and "at the end of the day" be proud of what I've done.

Today, I am...
We'll tawk tomorrow,
I love you all,
Terry