I used to think that I didn't have a whole lot to do with the story...I was powerless and had to let my life unfold as it did with me reacting to situations as I was hit with them.
I am understanding as I get older that I want my story to be my choices and my reactions to things from here... I understand that while I have no power to change my story of the past, I do have some power to change the story today. Not other people's behavior in the story but how I react to those behaviors... how I respond to what they do and say because of their stories.
Like yesterday...I could have been alot of things. I could have been embarrased, mad at the folks for reacting to my choice of behavior or defiant, "who are they...." But I made a choice...I live with it and go on.
I woke up this morning and the kitchen was a disaster. We had 10 eating dinner, dessert, drinks and there was dishes scattered through the house. I looked around and thought..."What a nice night with our friends...we need to do that more often" instead of "what a freakin' mess and I am the one to clean it up". That thought process was a choice. It was not a hard choice to make today but I have to say...last year at this time...I would have been mad for the whole weekend at my kids and husband for not thinking to help me clean up.
This morning, I thought, the heck with it...if I can do it, I will or I will leave it for later...it is not life and death. It is not worth it to be mad all weekend...